daddy is doin fine.

today i went on a bike ride

part 1- went to warehouse hopin for that 1208 cd but no dice. it was snatched up. ran into jared there. ashley shores boyfriend. then i met up with ashley for her lunch break. we went to oriental express... mmmm orange chicken

part 2- returned some movies. oh yeah baby!

we are going to visit my dad in the hospital today. i hate the feel of hospitals. =(

Currently Playing Don't Let the Bastards Grind You Down (D.L.T.B.G.Y.D.) By Toasters do i really have to say what track im listening to!? isnt it obvious!? my god!? see related

*tears tears and tears*

i hope your valentines day is better than mine. *tear* god im so fucking depressed. my dad had to go to the hospital.

i just got more updated news... my mom took him to clovis communtity but they had to transport him to fresno. and when i say "they" yeah i do mean an ambulance. =( they think a surgery he had on his leg a long time ago is clogged. so they think they are going to have to opperate.

even more updated... they dont think they have to opperate.

and again... they are keeping him overnight cause they got him on some like knock out drugs

holidays suck!! last thanksgiving it was my granny in the hospital and now valentines day with my dad. fuck holidays!!

T.S.O. motha fuckin L.!

allright the show. luckily school went by pretty fast which was good. rides got all fucked up. which is what john also did for the shit he pulled... i dont think it was a fucking accident. he was talkin shit to me and talkin shit to krys. how can it be a god damn accident! my mother was stressin out over some buisness stuff and she was supposed to pick mike up and take us to manchester but ashley came home so ash took us. we played everyones favorite hardcore band... the motha fuckin kinison. on the way to meet john and jerm at manchester ashley fucked up while driving, and even though i dont feel the need to explain it i will. (mike, ashley is a bleeding heart, her heart goes out to people, thats what she does. and we meet this 9 year old girl whos sitting around with her family in this ghetto ass apartment while they are smoking huge amounts of pot and frying balls right in front of her. and like they will talk about people theyve shot or stabbed or whatever. thats no enviroment for anyone. when we left ashley started crying... the girl really got to her.and shes been thinking about her a whole lot. she even gave her her number so she could call. and she calls like right after we left the house. the little girl needs someone so bad. and i say thank god we all went there that night. Allah fuckin sent ashley to her.) but ok depressing! ah! gah!! we met john and jerm and went to johns house. john ur room is cool.decoration wise and like architecture wise and whatnot. we get to the show, and lorenzo was there. lmao the night was full of my friends fuckin picking me up and me wrapping my legs around them. my goodness. the show was fuckin fat! so many people came! one guy from gateway that only goes to like the legendary shows came. i want to list who came but fuck that! sadly scattered fall wasnt playing which sucks cause they are cool and good fun.

red tape was cool. i checked them out on the web a previous day and i really like one song by them. i got their demo (dont like there new cd so much), i got the last one. and i got a tee shirt.

 thought riot was cool. way better last time. the pit for red tape and thought riot i was really dissapointed with cause they were just fuckin weak sauce. all big guys just trying to hurt people, not . it was still fun but especially for "sign of the times" the pit sucked. they have played that song much better. personally i think that song should be played as one of the last songs.

tso motha fuckin l! the pits were much better. cause it was more of a pit. john (kathyas john) got in. jack said some stuff that i didnt particularly enjoy but whatever. there was a song where it was only a girl pit. they said this is only for the girls no guys allowed! that was fuckin bad ass! so of course i did my duty and stayed in the whole song. 2004 IS FOR THE LADIES!! and they played serious so im fucking happy about that. i really enjoy the beat and feel of that song. and code blue as always was played last. and the pit was well. i got the album "disappear" and i got a tshirt the one with the staute of liberty, only i got the black girlie one with pink writting. after the show (poor kai. i heart you) i got my common rider from the loely ladies! thank you so much sue!!!!!!!!!! i heart common rider. me and mike were hanging out with the cchc boys and the lots boys and the velisha boys off and on waiting for his ride.

last night was fun and i have no like major bruises. everything is just super sore. my ass is fucking sore as fuck cause (during red tape?) i fell and i fucking flew. i caught air and i landed on my wallet. and any one whos done that before knows how harsh that is. my god its no fun. im full of dramatic moments, i fall, alot and i ended falling on my wallet alot. it hurts. oh yeah between thought riot and tsol i got water for drinkage and to poor on myself to cool down, lol it went all over my crotch. i bet the boys loved that shit.

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fuck you boys and your suggestive flirting. mitch with his bullshit, all fucking flirting making me think ill be able to pet ass then absolutely nothing. he fucking drops me and doesnt talk to me. jose with his flirting. i wish i knew for sure if i had no chance. i know i dont but i just want to double check so i dont waste my time further. and now joshua!! FUCKERS!! hes all "do u have a valentine?" i say "no?" and he goes "why not? i know u could get ur pick of any guy." (yeah. right.) it sounded like joshua might be lookin to pet ass but allright i could bet money that he called up like at least 5 other girls to tell them he was comning back, and flirted like mad and pulled the same thing. hes a player and hes a dog. whatever.

Currently Playing Disappear By T.S.O.L. see related

last night i went to the hockey game. we got there after the 2nd  quarter. it was my first like live hockey game and time at the savemart center... ill let u in on a secret. im scared of heights lol and we were in the balcony. but once we sat down i was ok. falcons suck balls this season. it was 1-4 and the fights were WEAK!!!!!!!!!! but it was still cool. not worth 10 bucks cool. but cool. iot was me, ashley, yvonne, jeff, becky, adam, such n such, and aaron, vanessa and nick. arron, such n such and beck were drinking but not drunk so that was boring. afterwards we went to carls then ashley, me, yvonne, jeff, and beck, drove arould alot then went home.

and something i would like to say was a brilliant move on my part... this is something ive wanted to do for awhile and finally did... i had cookie dough ice cream, took out the cookie dough and baked itty bitty cookies! and i was talking to justin at the time and so i decided to snail mail him some itty bitty cookies. fuckin bad ass! im a genius! lol jk

GREAT FUCKING SHOWS COMING UP!

TSOL- big game- FEB 13TH

TOTAL CHAOS- jon jons- FEB 29TH

MADCAP, 1208, INTRO5PECT- big game MAR 6TH

MISSING 23RD- jerry's (dont know if im actually going to this)- MAR 9TH

SUICIDE MACHINES, AGAINST ALL AUTHORITY (fuck i cant spell) THE CODE- tba- APR 7

OOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRGASIM!!!!!!!

7 SECONDS IS COMING OUT WITH A NEW FUCKING ALBUM IN THE FALL!!! ALL I HAVE TO SAY ABOUT THAT IS, GOOD FUCKING PLAN!! AND ORGASIM! they should go on tour and come here! but thats not something to joke about ok! u dont joke about such things! its just sadistic. kevin marvelli boner!! hes so dreamy!!

GO TO WWW.7SECONDS.COM then go to messages, go to the FRESNO, CA thread. register and POST!! im trying to convince 7 seconds to come to fresno and i need your HELP!!! TELL ALL THE COOL CATS U KNOW!! GET EVERYONE GOING THERE! PLEASE! FOR THE SAKE OF THE NATION!!!

Currently Playing Stand Your Ground By Madcap "going on the road" i MUST skank to this song! I MUST!! "it will be mine! oh yes! it will be mine!" see related

last night was fuckin awesome

well ok jose, turns out he wasnt going so i had to find a ride but krys offered me to take me there and pick me up. so yeah that happened she dropped me off and left, and johnathon and erin were there, they got there right as i did. it was cool. i was surprised, there was actually a line to get in! but u mention afi everyones gonna come a runnin. dead elizabeth was much better this time. theyre super neat. scattered fall was super bad ass. good pit. THE FRISK!! fuck yeah! almost coughed up a lung. jerm tried to get them to play fuck shit up, but alas, they did not *tear* i had to take time and strip out of the undershirt i had cause i was so fucking hot. he he when pipedown was setting up i was going back to my olympic tshirt jump roping days... but that was before i broke my hip.  pipe down was rad and they ended with the two songs i know by them. the pit was cool. weak for the most part. except for the few cchc that actually stayed. afterwards i got a frisk shirt and cd, and some shit from scattered fall. i wanted to get another tshirt but then the one chickadee said my ride was waiting for me. i quickly tried to find belinda and sue but no dice, and im so sorry i hope u werent waiting for me. im so sorry. afterwards we went to krystals cause she was having a drinking shin dig there. rick got drunk but had to leave by 1, the one skanky bitch didnt drink and niether did jose. amber got wasted, paul got drunk and ame got drunk. and 3 of pauls friends came over and were/got drunk they were pretty cool. they brought a long a guitar so i played alittle bit and they played alot of sublime. oh and one guy was into punk so we were talkin about punk and shit it was cool. i didnt drink. i had like a few tastes but thats just cause i love the taste but didnt want to get drunk. im over drinking! fuck the liquid satan!! i didnt have more than a shot throughout the night and im proud. mainly i was sitting there watching. debating on wheather it was a good or bad idea that i came but i dont think it was good nor bad. in the morning we sat around for quite a bit. paul left and i won a 50 dollar bet that hed be back by two! oh yeah. (its in monopoly money) we watched the sweetest thing. and i walked home at 3, its 343 now. got home at 28. they all offered me rides but i like walking. im all sore from sleeping on the floor and i have a horrible tense and bruised muscle on my left arm. my arm is all that really got injured in the pit. i thought it was a good fuckin pit and i had fun! lol when i got to krystals i kept shaking, i still had such an adrenaline rush. it was a good night.

NEWS FUCKING FLASH!!!!

MADCAP, 1208, INTRO5PECT, and velisha MARCH 6TH!!!! hells fucking yes!!!!!! i heart madcap so much!!!!! such a good show i just may cry!! *tear*

Currently Playing Rank Restraint By Frisk fuck you see related